Faking Myself That You're Still Loving Me
2, or maybe 3 months have passed, i'm busy with my work, i'm not contacting her everytime, but when i have time, i'm surprised
Her way of talking is differrent, she's not even loving me, she's busy with her new Idol, she's dancing, or whatever she do, she's not remember that i'm waiting her reply, even remember that i'm her ex-idol..
I think about it everyday, why is this happen? My fault maybe? Or maybe she think that our religion can't be connected? Or she is ready to dump me?
I'm sick thinking about it everyday, "Really sick", my body is drop, and when that happen, we had a fight, big fight, until my young friend take the rest to keep me not to tired, that day, i'm crying, my young friend already said that i should forget her, but i can't
I still keep the promise i made with her, i love her of course..
Day by day, i'm getting more weak, and when my dad's day of death, we have another fight, it's stressing, i end up sleep at the hospital, she come, she take care of me, both of us say sorry, but a hole stay in my heart, and hers too, i don't know why, but looks like, than any of pain she got, my pain is more, more, and more than her, and looks like that i've losing my heart, i have no heart again
I'm listening to a song that makes me feel very sad, i cried everytime i hear that, but i never mentioned it to her
I keep on smiling even when she still using the language that i don't want her to say, i keep silent when she abandoned me for a while
Yea, i fake myself, so, when the time is passed, i get used to it, and let it be
But still, lot of sadness stay in my chest
If god give me a time, i want everything is happen like before this happen
Cause
I've promised to protect her forever
Dear God, don't take my life before i fulfill my job..
2, or maybe 3 months have passed, i'm busy with my work, i'm not contacting her everytime, but when i have time, i'm surprised
Her way of talking is differrent, she's not even loving me, she's busy with her new Idol, she's dancing, or whatever she do, she's not remember that i'm waiting her reply, even remember that i'm her ex-idol..
I think about it everyday, why is this happen? My fault maybe? Or maybe she think that our religion can't be connected? Or she is ready to dump me?
I'm sick thinking about it everyday, "Really sick", my body is drop, and when that happen, we had a fight, big fight, until my young friend take the rest to keep me not to tired, that day, i'm crying, my young friend already said that i should forget her, but i can't
I still keep the promise i made with her, i love her of course..
Day by day, i'm getting more weak, and when my dad's day of death, we have another fight, it's stressing, i end up sleep at the hospital, she come, she take care of me, both of us say sorry, but a hole stay in my heart, and hers too, i don't know why, but looks like, than any of pain she got, my pain is more, more, and more than her, and looks like that i've losing my heart, i have no heart again
I'm listening to a song that makes me feel very sad, i cried everytime i hear that, but i never mentioned it to her
I keep on smiling even when she still using the language that i don't want her to say, i keep silent when she abandoned me for a while
Yea, i fake myself, so, when the time is passed, i get used to it, and let it be
But still, lot of sadness stay in my chest
If god give me a time, i want everything is happen like before this happen
Cause
I've promised to protect her forever
Dear God, don't take my life before i fulfill my job..
